I wanted to share the song with you today -- it cheered me up once when I was down to the bottom. It's a song for a classical Chinese novel 西游记 (Sun Wukong's journey to become a Buddha). I Loved the story when I was a kid, and I Love it now. (Yeah, I know that tells where I still am now...). I wanted to let you know that you have been so important in my journey here. I supposed you know what I am talking about in the following case. So, you know what I value in life. And I am pretty tough. No external forces can really attack me down; neither can any caustic voices etch away any part in what I value. But at that critical moment, among all those voices, it's YOURS that I truly listened to (well, yeah, I was thinking like this by then "Hello? You are supposed to be by my side, even the whole world on the other side, because you are my best friend here!" I confess that witnessing you suddenly "changing partner" at that moment and your followed sadness gave me a severe heartache... (That heartache let me know that how much your feelings mattered to me). But it's from that heartache, something in me has started to melt; and it's from that moment, I decided to be quiet, and to really listen to what the "other" side of the world was saying (since you're on "that" side as well); and it's from that moment, I became more ears & mind-open and to be able to learned more, and more (inner) growth in me got started to happen. But among all the factors induced the growth, that heartache, mattered, more than anything else.

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When I first heard the news early this morning, I wanted to say "all will be fine" to you, because you are such a strong person with such a tender heart. But you says it so beautifully yourself that "all good things". Yes, all are good. I didn't understand the beauty of that saying until later this morning when I was riding my bicycle to school, with music in my ears, reflecting. Smile & tears triggering things about you, and me, and us flashed by in my mind, which created my favorite moments composed with sadness, hope, and joy... I wanted to let you know that you're such an empowering & inspiring life to me... and that I am so grateful to have a shared wonderful journey with you and your invaluable friendship... and that you have enough strength & potential to explore *more* *into* the world than learning about the world via observing in a healing center (even if it's a good healing center as the one is)...

No matter what, I am Always with you, because You Are Beautiful...

Lingchao